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Well, so much has happened lately, I don't know where to start... The reopening of Natalie's death... What I would like to say first and most importantly... This is NOT an issue of sides...there are no sides. There is the truth, and there is a multitude of "stories" we have all been told and asked to believe. Believing the gentlest, simplest explanation is what I have done and would prefer. But other facts have hit my heart, and torn me apart emotionally. I did not start the petition, I want the truth...but I am frightened of it. Ambivalent at best, which adds to the extreme unrest I feel. I have known and loved RJ my entire life! Since I was nine years old... Natalie? I won't even go into my feelings, I would be writing for the next year or more! She was my best friend, sometimes my only friend. She was my Mother, my mentor, my ideal...my confidante, my Sister. Allow the homicide detectives to do their job. The job that should have been done thirty years ago. The innocent have nothing to fear. I have spent many years saying "what about Natalie's kids?" "Will the truth hurt them?" But I now realize that truth is that...it is. It doesn't cause pain or happiness, it just makes things understandable and quiets our world. I do not blame anyone...am I at times angry about all of it? Of course. But that won't bring her back. Watch her films, remember who she was as a person... don't believe lies, and keep her alive in your hearts as she is in mine.